battle with myself
im so tired of not sleepin...tired of not havin nothing 2 believe in...tired of all my friends leavin..im tired of my bitches cheain..im tired of my house not bein heated...im tired of pretending ive eaten..im tired of not havin shoes 2 put my feet in..im just tired of life..i just wanna grab a knife..n cut my veins...or grab a gun n blow out my brains..trin so hard 2 maintain..wanna get tru this pain..tryin 2 keep my self sane..lain in bed goin insane..what happened 2 my life...i used 2 have hope in my eyes...no im sellin drugs 2 get by..now ima cancerous tumor on the heart of society...brushin my footprints away...dont follow me..noone should hafta live like me..need 2 turn on the heat im cold...need shoes snows gettin in thru tha holes...beggin 4 money..that shit aint funny...its tha hardest ting i eva had 2 do..had 2 swallow my pride just 2 ask u..so embarassed i cant even look @ u..please sir..