Love of A Teenager
you have driven me to think until i give myself headaches. you have driven me to contemplate suicide. you have driven me to the extreme and back. you have driven me so far away i dont remember what home is. your words hurt me all the time but its ok. your touch makes me cringe but i welcome the feeling. is it love or ignorance? you have made it so that i can not have a relationship with any other girl because i cant stop worrying and wondering about you. the girl that drove me insane, the girl that pushed a little too much sometimes. sometimes i wish i was dead, gone from this boy. sometimes i wish i had killed myself just to say "there, i finally made you happy." death is but of the essence. it feels like i have nothing to live for, no one to watch me do it, and to cry when i make it. maybe its better to be by myself all the time. maybe its one of those things that im suppossed to have no one with me along the path. my flame is extinguished, my hop is flat. i have a skateboard and a few dollars. no support, no hope, no soul. i live because my heart wont stop. i wont pass in the dark while it rains. maybe theres a reason. maybe its a sign. but until i know, it feels like this life is a waste of time.